So I've worn my hijab enough lately that when I went to work today without it on I felt completely naked. It probably didn't help that Tuesday has to be laundry day and I therefore have a very limited and rather revealing selection of shirts right now. It feels like I'm slapping the face of the people who have encouraged me to cover, and it feels like everyone is ogling me, even if they aren't. I like my hijab. It's like a super social anxiety blankie. It calms me.
But I have come to a decision, because it's easier than having to hide my food and drink while the sun is up: until the end of Ramadhan, I am not going to wear it, at least not at work. Yes, if I were Muslim I would likely have an out on the fasting thing seeing as my blood sugar has a funny habit of hitting the floor at random, but it feels really disrespectful, especially when the muslim customers come in and see me in my hijab drinking a soda at noon on a friday during Ramadhan. Unfortunately, this decision will likely leave me very anxious and probably stressed. The beginning of September cannot come fast enough for this very reason. I want very much to wear my hijab at work and be safe and covered.
I have some pictures of my recent styles I will be uploading soon, so keep an eye on the blog, peeps!
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